smitten by someone i can never have

yes.

and i find myself thinking about this person every single day.

i know nothing's gonna happen, the more i entertain this, the more its gonna make you affect the way i feel.

i know this will lead to nowhere.

whoah!

im taking this risk - the walls are now gone.

lets, nobody gets out of this life alive anyway.

Long Overdue post

1. The day my good friend gave my number to him was the day i gave him access to affect how i feel...

it was the day i gave him the power to make me happy, and the power to make me sad...and the power to confuse me for years...

the day i took the shot

August 9, 2007

it was supposed to be a "no big deal" thing...but then, it was the first time, i guess its just normal for me to be bothered...

the image just keeps on flashing in my head...and everytime it does...i just...

if that was with a stranger, it would have been fine...i guess...

oh well...i hope this would just evaporate and let's all pretend that it didn't happen...