You don't...

You just want him to be there..there was never love

when you wish upon a...fish

Really?

So, why do i keep on doing that to myself? I spent my weekend watching cheezy koreanobelas. Allowing myself to be submerged into the glory of - love and all its cheesiness. I mean, love is good and strange (Thanks Che for that really interesting pin you gave me - i think it's going to be one of my favorites). The pin says: Love is so strange. I intended to take a picture of it and include it in today's post, but I'm just to lazy to upload.

Love. love. love - overrated.

People want to talk about it - I used to want to talk about it - like all the time. But for some reason, that want faded away. It's not like I don't want to talk about it anymore - but whenever it is mentioned, I find myself rolling my eyeballs or just giving a heavy heavy sigh. I'm not really sure where all of this came from.

I want to start something - something to revive my faith in love - whatever that means. I don't want to be a skeptic - I want to believe in it again, or just think that it is possible. I'm not sure if I have really experienced it. I can't tell really. Anway, going back to that thing I wanna start - I wanna start a journal about waiting. I'm gonna blog everyday about waiting, about getting excited that maybe tomorrow I'll find you or you'll find me. Something that will document my anticipation for your...yeah...arrival.

According to The Secret, you have to want something for you to have it and the want should be consistent. Maybe if I put that want into writing it will become more consistent and the universe will finally do something about it? But then again, according to the book, the want should be specific. And I specifically don't know what I want. I'm not sure if I want something serious or something for experience purposes. So, I'm not sure if blogging everyday about it will actually lead into a miracle. But I'm still gonna try - who knows, in the process, I might just figure out what I really want.

Is it pathetic?I just thought that this is something - cute? By the time he comes, he'll read it and get really touched and won't think of ever leaving me [another rolling of eyeballs].

This might just be a koreanobela hangover and i'll get over it tomorrow - when I get myself submerged in work. As for now, I'll just keep on wishing on fishes (stars didn't work for me).

will always be 12...

so, i've been feeling demotivated for the past couple of days - weeks. I mean I still go throgh work as normal as possible, but the enthusiasm is just blah - if there was any

so, I tried to look for motivation today - and I found it im my ROOM! I decided to re-arrange my room (not really, cause the only addition is my desk which used to be outside). Now my room looks like that of a 12 year old - or a highschool studentim planning to add more pink - i really wish i'll find that pink flying pig soon!

quick runthrough of what's in my room now:Perfect Princess pillow - thanks Katt! i remember how we are perfect and how we have the perfect everything! perfect pimple, perfect headache..perfect everything!

Heart Card - PACMAN's bday present to me :) I posted it near my desk to "motivate me". It has nothing but positive and funny messages from the team - so, perfect motivator

Aromatherapy candle - it has always been there but I stopped using it. I placed it on my desk, so I'll see it more often and use it more often

My Frogs - moolah
Snowglobes - gives me hope, that someday I'll experience actual snow - loser - i know..hahaha!

hay, i love my room...