Love - My Wedding Song

If you check my summer playlist, you'll see there the song "Love" by Matt White (thanks for the song Tin) and you can actually listen to it, my palylist is now clickable...it is such a beautiful song and I have decided - this will be my offical wedding song - the song that will be played while i walk down the aisle (a more church like rendition of course :) ).

I will be married on a summer month - so around march, april or may - most probably may, around 4pm. It will be a church wedding with around 50 witnessess. Immediate family and close friends. I'm not dreaming of a big and extravagant wedding. I want it to be simple and with minimal preparation - like 2 months preparation. Reception will be at the beach, with Luau, reggae and bosa playing on the background. My guests will be wearing jeans...my entourage will be wearing simple, laid back outfits that i will personally design.

I will wear a wedding dress (see attached photo - something like that ;)), not a wedding gown and my husband will be wearing a tux. During the reception, i will be wearing a see-thru peasant top and shorts he will be wearing a sando and board shorts. We will have an exclusive beach party in the evening - with a bar set up near the shore, candles, matts and pillows everywhere - if im lucky enough and rich enough, ill get myself a dj to do the mix :p

we will have our honeymoon in Bali or Jeju - so there that's my ideal wedding...oh by the way, my first daughter will be named Samantha Renee nickname: Summer...she'll be the cutest baby...ok, now i should get back to reality and deal with my Abaps ;p

Take it from the Spartan and the god of rock

I'm blogging because I have this feeling that this will be another long day for me :(

Anyhoo, just like when i was in college, I would write an entry by the time I wake up then write another entry before I sleep - blogging gives me a semi-peace of mind - i find comfort in writing - mmm, maybe i should write poems again...drifting...drifting

I stumbled over Mabelle's blog today and read her entry where she quoted Kurt Cobain (may i just say that girls who love old school rock, rocks!!!): It is better to burn out than to fade away. Then, I had a little reflection - have I reached that stage already? Lately, I've been swamped with work. Things have been and are becoming more challenging. Sometimes, I just find myself staring into blank space - completely clueless on what I'm gonna do next - most of the time helpless.

Last week, I was privilegded enough to watch 300 and there was a line in the movie that caught my attention. I can't remember the exact line, but this was the line that one of the Spartan warriors (see? i was paying attention to the movie, not just the abs :P) said while observing the fleet of Persians settling on the shore. One of their comrades, non-Spartan was overwhelmed with the number of Persians and was freaked out, this is when he mentioned this line - i think the gist of the line is this: i fought all my life and i have survived, but someone out there was born to kill me - and then he laughed...really hard.

My interpretation of the line is this: he was not intimated by the number of persian soldiers (when you're only 300 and there were like gazillions of people dying to cut your throat, you'll be pretty intimidated right?). He took the war as an oppurtunity to meet his match - the war for him, more than anything else, was a challenge. He did fade away, but he burned out before fading. He fought, he did not run away and vanish just like that. Talk about courage.

Ok, so where am i leading you? nothing really...this is more of uplifting my spirit...Cliche as it may seem, but honestly, no one can help you but you...and just like Kurt and his baby - scream - it helps a whole damn lot!!!

Randomly written

I'm getting myself a Nano and I'm getting out of this mess as soon as possible - or maybe not - but I'm definitely getting myself a Nano

1:32 am PC time - this line just brings back something really really sad. Right, and I told myself that i'm so not gonna think about it anymore...

Anyhow, I'm just glad that I am able to blog again. I'm planning to migrate all my entries from my other two blog accounts, hopefully this weekend. Writing a blog entry releases a lot of stress and frustrations - makes things a lot tolerable for me - blogging keeps me healthy.

I miss the smell of paint...I really enjoyed playing with colors - what's with these random thoughts? Well maybe because i dropped by Rika's blog and saw her art works, then i remembered how i enjoyed sketching and doing all this crafty art thingy. I don't get to this anymore :(

Anyhoo, got some songs from Clai, added them to my Summer Playlist already, thanks Clai! :)
I'll have a quick dinner and I'll get back to something pending....aarrrrrggggghhhhhh!
Confession: I hate it whenever i hear/read these:
"d me pwede e"
"kain muna me"
"pagod na me"
"uwi na kse me e"

drop the me!!! for goodness' sake! No offense to those who are fond of using this, but please...pretty please....im begging you, do not use these when talking to me. I can't help it, but it ruins my day...irritates me terribly...the "me" doesn't work for me...I'm sorry....

Tracking the new me

It's 10:00 am and I'm already up. In a normal day, this would have been super early, given that I report for work at 2 in the afternoon. For some reason, I had the urge to wake up and eat and get ready for another long and challenging day in the office. I slept at around 4 am early this morning - freakin early this morning. I actually was doing nothing, i just can't sleep - apparently i have turned into an insomiac-morning-person - me, the walking irony.

Another so-not-me revelation, I'm starting to like Laguna Beach. No offense Daene (or maybe just a little :P), but that show wasn't in my list - until last week. I have discovered that the show is real - obviously with the accent and for lack of a better term, superficiallity, - :P Anyhow, I kinda like it. Like I just find myself, like watching it and like, excited about the next episode. Like super. :P If you have noticed, my Summer Playlist (draft) is 90% from the Laguna Beach Soundtrack - just in case you didn't read that part of the blog - interesting songs there.

More - I am now taking control of my life - I'm not sure if people will take this as a good thing or as a bad omen - an omen that I'll soon be turning into a monster. Lately, I've been making decisions on my own. It's more of I'm informing as opposed to asking for permission. It's not that I don't want other people to be involved in my decision making, it's just that i have come to realize that, I'm freakin 22 and I should be making decisions for myself - or is this something I should have a done a long time ago? Anyway, I'm doing it now and there's no stopping me (whatever that means).

In the coming days, I bet I'll be discovering a lot about the "new me" - honestly, it's kinda freakin me out. I'm not sure if this is already a sign of maturity or the other way around...LOL...

Anyhow, just so happy about the new blog - expect a daily update :)

The Talipanan Trip - Volume 1

Went to Talipanan over the weekend. I went there without my parent's consent. Bad...bad...

I had a blast though. Daene and I decided to pursue the "plan" only 4 days before the actual trip - so technically, it can still be considered as a "shotgun weekend getaway".

We left Manila at around 8:00 am. The ride was long and full. There was a considerable number of people who wanted to get out of the toxic-infested city and just relax. I made them unconciously entertain me; The guy seated next to me, smelled like a bottle of uber strong perfume. I have a very sensitive nasal system so i can't help but give a couple of squints and coughs from time to time. This guy is currently working in Manila and only goes home to his family during weekends. To make an "impression" of the city life, he had to spray an entire bottle of cologne - com'on this the Scent-of-the-City.

The guy seated next to him was a relatively old foreigner, who we eventually called, the 60-year-old-backpacker-dude. He had a huge backpack and a Lonely Planet book. After studying him, Daene and I came up with a story - this guy just recently retired and he didn't know what to do with his retirement pay so he decided to take a trip around the world - Galera being his first destination.

The couple seated in front of us works in a CSC - end of story

By the time we reached Batangas Pier, I was ecstatic! This is going to be my first time. Daene and I bought our boat tickets and off we went to the "departure area". The area was jam-packed! There were foreigners, college students, families, Koreans on a paid-vacation (they study and they chill, how cool can that be?) and gazillions of, yes - Daene would know what i mean...I'm a meanie....I'm sorry...again, this blog will have confessions...:)

to be continued...